Another life changing event

I wrote this on July 11th when I still wasn't sure... but had a feeling:

I feel lost and lonely and afraid.
I feel like nothing's going right.
I have a logical mind working overtime
To battle my emotional heart.
I hear constant screaming in my head
Overwhelming sense of dread.
But logically knowing there is hope.
How do i handle this new wrench?
Why should I have to?
I want to scream "It's not fair!"
But we all know that has nothing to do with it.
It's not fair, no, but it is reality.
I will pull through this hardship
Like I have so many that came before it...
I am a survivor.
It's what I do.

Angel
7/11/2010