I hate the way I feel today. I can't get past this bump. There's a lump in my throat that won't go away and I am not sure what to do about it. I have been sleeping WAY too much and not crying enough... I am over stressed over what I am not sure. I know these emotions have a reason, a name, something to show me why I am feeling this way. But I can't get over it and it is driving me insane! I can't figure this out and it is dragging me down and there is nothing more I can say. I am in fear for my heart and my spirit and everything is melting away. I am stressed and so tired so so tired... I can't believe how much sleeping I can do which is a HUGE sign that there is something wrong. I feel tense, lonely, disappointed in myself, angry... I just... I don't know I feel like a nut job! GAGGAARRR