Average Superhero

Through the years and the tears
the heartache and fears
Lives we’ve lost, paths have crossed
Through the joy and the pain
the laughter and strain
This truth remains the same:
I’m grateful for what I have
Thankful for who I am
Those who have touched me
left an impression in my plan

So take my hand and understand
this life I lead is rarely planned, never bland
but if you try you can vie for a piece of this pie
the lies have died and I no longer deny
who I am inside

I’ve got control, I’m here for the long haul
I work till I break
then pick myself up and reinstate
There’s not a day I’ll stop fighting
I’m not one to give in
so if you’ll be the side kick
up for tag teaming this shit
there’s no way we can’t win

So come on in and begin
to get with the picture, its crystal clear again
where I go from here is up-up and away
from this pen I’ve been livin' in

Take the freedom to fly
the right to fight
responsibility to try and treat myself right
I’m takin' over
so if you’re up for the ride
take a hold of my shoulders
up-up and away we will fly.

Looking Back

Wow... SO i just read through my blog.

Sorry for all the rage... seems like I only posted when I needed to complain. ahh well such is the reason for a journal in the first place.

I had another interesting John event this week. I got a call from a payday loan place asking if I knew where he was because I was a reference on his loan. I then proceeded to text him and tell him they were looking for him. He then told me to lie and say I dont know him. I told him i didnt feel comfortable lying. The events unfolded and somewhere he told me to fuck off and called me a fucking fatty and told me I ruined his finances and that he really is the asshole I told him he was. etc. And now I know,that things have officially changed. Before, even just a couple months ago, this would have had me distraught. Now, nothing... absolutely nothing. And I am financially way ahead of where I was with him When I left him he had 0 debt... so he really cant blame me for whatever he dug into.

So what did I do? called the payday loan place and gave them all the phone numbers of HIS friends and relatives... because apparently they called Tove and Mom too.. WOW.

Wanna know something awesome? HE MOVED BACK TO ARKANSAS!!!
Looking over the shoulder shall never happen again. I can go anywhere anytime without worry about his sorry ass.

Lovely! :)

I am doing quite well.

I just took the NIC.. yes...THE NIC!!!!I will know sometime between now and 6 months from now.


Right before I took it I had a nightmare... LOL

you would think it would be something about my skills... my mind going blank or something... YOU THINK WRONG!

I got up (In the dream) and got dressed in my legislature outfit... drove to CSD to take the test. When I arrived I went to the bathroom before I started... I looked in the mirror and I was wearing Plaid pants with my TYE DYE SHIRT!!! I freaked... I asked the LTA if I could change quick and she said "you cant go home but you can go to the thrift store in the basement" So I went... and it was a thrift store that ONLY sells Rock and Roll T shirts... SO i grabbed a black iron maden t and turned it inside out.

Test went great... when I was done she said "Your results will come on Sept 5th" and then I woke up. lol

So... I took the test. It went really well. I feel good about it.

I feel good about a lot of things. Life is great.


:)
Angel