The things I can't wait for...

I can't wait until i graduate! I really am so excited
Even sooner, I can't wait for school to start... having a fresh new page for school and my LAST year... I am just so excited!

I Can't wait for internship... I know it will be a remarkable experience and I seriously hope it goes as well as I think it will.
I can't wait for Labor day, when I get to finally spend some more time in Colorado doing some fun stuff, and then I get to see my Bubby and momma and we get to hang out and do whatever and go to a Rockies game and all of it!!

I can't wait for my cleanse, I think it will help. I feel bad that I have been cheating kinda but I want to get in all my cravings before i just say "Screw you" to them all... y'know?
I can't wait for my intimate/personal pictures and I definitely can't wait for Jamie to draw/paint them for me... that would be so flippin sweet.
I can't wait to get my freedom/independence tattoo...

I can't wait for the divorce to be final, then I can just drop that bastard like a sack of rocks and leave him where he lies...

I can't wait to move to Colorado... How effing amazing to be home where my heart is, and if Bubs and I get the opportunity to live together that would be even more amazing!

I can't wait to date again... I know I shouldn't even be thinking about it but I can't wait for the opportunity to start from scratch!

I can't wait to have babies... I want to be a mom so much and I really am excited for being one... I know it is A LONG WAY OFF but still, something that i value having back.
I can't wait to do the things I want to do like interpreting and getting jobs and all of that!

I can't wait to get back into the groove of things...
I can't wait to hear back from Brenda about my financial situation, and from the Dean about my stupid history class...
I can't wait to get this shit behind me... and get into my internship... where the real work begins.

I can't wait to get settled, hopefully in Michelle and Paul's garage apartment for 9 months... i feel like that is where I need to be and if I can just settle down for a minute or two and just get back to me... i will be good

I can't wait to go out... and just... HAVE FUN and be myself how awesome would that be...
I can't wait for my next kiss... who will it be? how will it feel? will there be sparks?

I can't wait for all of these things, but what is important right now is that I figure out the small steps, how to get there. I make a plan, and I follow through. I know that going back to being a night time owl teeniebopper is fun, but I really need to just be a grown up now. I get the chance to be who I want to be and do what I want to do. I want to be a HARD WORKER and smart and fun and a person who cleans up after myself... that is all good but I have to actually do it. Old habits die hard..> SUPER hard! but I can find a way... I am sure.

*sigh*

Life could be simple, but then it wouldn't be worth living. We all have to go through the hard shit to get to the good stuff, and life is too short to sit on your ass and let it pass by.

I am excited, for who I am and for what is to come... :) Thank God for second chances, family, friends, and a good heart!

Angel